Diving Into Death
Suicide can strike anyone, anywhere. It is neither a “cool” Netflix series nor a “committed” crime. Here, a survivor of suicide loss contemplates the aftermath–despair, guilt, blame, rage, fear, faith, and growth–stripped of platitudes and promises, just the raw truth of grief, with the hope that words have the power to comfort, affirm, and ameliorate.
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LOSS. You cannot imagine and may not even wish to go on without them. Just taking your next breath requires extraordinary strength. Experience others’ stories here.
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GRIEF. Somehow, the world goes on, but you’re engulfed in pain so deep it wants to swallow you whole. It is terrifying. Explore the facets and phases of grief here.
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OPTIONS. You realize you have three: to follow them into death, to endure in endless pain, or to risk evolving into a new version of you. Consider connecting to other survivors here.
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“I Broke My Brain”: from Drugs to Suicide
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Childless Mother
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About Jessica Joyce
Survivor of poverty, rape, domestic violence, divorce, severe mental illness in family, estrangement, depression, anxiety … and then, the loss by suicide of my 21-year-old son, Jacob. A middle-aged mother taking shelter near the sea, striving to continue breathing and living. A writer who believes our words have the power to flush out the rage, apply balm to trauma, and help us survive through the sharing of stories.